It was time for me to wake again
A beautiful spring day in Hudiksvall amongst soft and warm fragrances from oils, I found a book. I was strolling around in a newly opened spiritual store and a white book with colored patterns on the front caught my attention. The book was written by Alberto Villoldo and was called Shamanic Healing. (Alberto was a young professor that was studying the brain and experienced that he could not find all of the answers about the structure of the brain and senses through just studying and excavate the brain. He had heard about native populations and shamans that through energy could redirect the body's energy flows and affect humans senses through energy. As he could not fins all of the answers and mysteries through in a lab he bought a pair of boots to start his study of these people and eventually ended up with the Inca natives descendants high up in the mountains of the Andes. He has been studying them for over 25 years.)
I picked up the book and I remember that I thought that the book sounded like it was facts about the Incas. Shaman didn't tell me much and reacted the same with the word healing. I put the book away but I could not stop thinking of it and the word Inca. I went back and forth in the store but again and again I found myself standing by the shelf to hold and turn the pages of this book.
Finally I decided not to buy it and exit the store. When the door closed behind me and I heard the doorbell, there was a strong feeling that I must have it, that I needed it. I bought it and at just as I started to read I already knew what it was about. Everything that I read was just a reminder of a knowledge that I was unbelievably familiar with, a reminder of my inner truth and valuations. That was the day when the calling listen to my souls longing and in depth transform my life towards another direction.
It didn't take long until I contacted The Four Winds Society which is a school that Alberto Villoldo found to be able to share the Inca Shamans' teachings. They helped me to get in contact with one of there organizers here in Sweden, which in turn helped me to find the way closer to my dream.
Half a year before my high school graduation the calling was so strong that I could not think of anything else despite not having been participating in any courses. I contacted the principal of the school and took a study break to be able to work, get a permanent employment and get a bank loan to pay for the shamanic education. I was driven by a new feeling and vision, completely unaware but still so aware of what was awaiting me. I later went on my first course and that change I went through there cannot be described in words. To quit my high school education is one of the most important choices I've made. I listened to my souls calling and stepped in to a world that I'd been longing for all of my life. I was now home again, on my way towards the destiny that is created by my dreams.
"Shamanic Healing by Alberto Villoldo. The book that woke my souls calling and reminded it of the life that we know deep down inside we're supposed to be living. My souls journey and my strive for a more beautiful world commenced."